sploom II

if you're loved you're never rejected; decide what to be & go be it

2011-07-01T22:44:00.005-04:00

It's been exactly one and a half years since I've done anything with this blog. I think I'm going to try rebooting it. I have a couple ideas of things I might try doing with it.

I recently went to Seattle and it was an interesting city, but somewhat disappointing. I don't think it's a city you can necessarily visit because there really isn't much there. Nothing really jumped out at me. I think it would be a fun city to live in, but not so much to just visit for a short time.

I've been writing a lot lately and have some great ideas for things. Finally finished one novel and started on two more. Haven't been writing as much poetry, but what I have been writing has been pretty good stuff. I'm trying to get more into the slam scene too.

we'll never look back

2010-01-09T23:48:00.001-05:00

if i would've known that i would've scheduled our date sooner

2009-11-27T21:37:00.001-05:00

I want to eat lunch with Stephen Fry simply so I can feel completely inadequate afterwards.

i could be a champion if i actually stood on my feet
and i could probably be one of the elite
stamping my hands in the wet concrete
but instead i just turn and flee
yeah, instead i just turn and flee
you're just sat there staring at me
why are you staring at me?
why are you staring at me?
why are you staring at me?

yeah, i coulda been the president
spreading laws and setting precedents
and dropping bombs (yeah)
and dropping bombs (yeah)

yeah, i coulda been the president
yeah, i coulda been the president
coulda been the president (yeah)
coulda been the president (yeah)

i coulda dropped the bombs
and chopped down the red logs
coulda had the world in my palm
coulda lead us through vietnam
yeah, i coulda lead us through vietnam
through vietnam
through vietnam
yeah, through vietnam

yeah, i coulda been the president
yeah, i coulda been the president
the president
the president

violet, i want you to know

2009-11-04T00:25:00.008-05:00

It's 33F outside, and I'm sitting in my room sweating, and I don't think the radiator is even turned on. There is definitely something wrong with that. I think I'll be turning my fan back on.

I learned today that stating your opinion and fighting for what you feel is right is disrespectful, especially if an explodingly pregnant woman is involved.

I've very much been slacking on the novel, which is quite the shame. I need to get my ass in gear.

This morning I voted. I noticed all the names were the same as always. I plan to run for the board of education in an attempt to change that. The board of education has consisted of the same members for as long as I can remember. The people who shook my hand when I graduated were the same people who shook my cousin's hand when he graduated 12 years ago. That's not a good thing. This isn't the senate. Education is constantly changing thus the representatives thereof need to be everchanging as well if they ever wish to be ahead of the curve.

Everyone who is reading this (all none of you) need to Google the Top Gear Polar Special. It is quite simply immense and one of the best episodes of Top Gear I've ever seen. If you don't know what Top Gear is, it is a TV show from the BBC that is about cars, although it is much, much more than that.

gettin' brain in the library cuz i love knowledge

2009-10-25T23:49:00.003-04:00

I've been listening to a lot of hip-hop and rap lately, mostly Kid Cudi and Flo Rida. I told someone the other day that I had been listening to Flo Rida recently, and he about had a heart attack.

Last night I upgraded to Windows 7, and now I cannot connect to the wireless network here at school. I can't exactly say I'm fond of being tethered to the wall.

After a couple weeks break I am finally back to working on the novel. I'd still like it be done by the end of the month, but that's not going to happen.

it's all been said and done and my cock's been sucked

2009-10-22T23:12:00.003-04:00

Life has been busy lately. Exams, papers, friends, girls, people doing stupid things, school, bowling, doctors, shopping. My fall break wasn't at all relaxing until the normal weekend and even that had its downfalls.

My best friend who is younger than me has started to influence me: I'm wearing Nike Shox and listening to rap and hip-hop. Shouldn't it be the other way around? Shouldn't I be influencing him to wear cargo pants and listen to Bob Dylan? Although the music is good and the shoes are comfortable, so I guess that's a positive thing, right?

On the subject of hip hop, I've been listening to Kid Cudi a lot lately. He's ridiculously good, and he's from Ohio, so he's got that going for him. Although, he is from Cleveland and let's face, not much else from Cleveland has proven to be good (I'm looking at you Indians!).

I've been slacking on my novel lately. I've been too busy to concentrate on it or to make any substantial advances. At most, I've written 200 words in the last two weeks. I feel a bit discouraged, but I'm hoping to make up for that soon. I wanted to be done by the end of the month as that is when I told a professor of mine to expect a manuscript, but I'm not certain if that will happen or not.

I need to finish reading Nickel and Dimed and return it to the library (although I think it's about two weeks past due) so I can write a book review on it. It's mostly going to be mostly bullshit I think. I've struggled to open that book up since Barbara Ehrenreich, the author, visited me class as many of her comments on small business left me fuming. She left me with the impression that she simply does not care at all about small business in America and how it is being threatened by poorly thought-out government regulations and the ubiquitous Wal-Mart.

you said it and you wrote it down

2009-10-16T12:04:00.001-04:00

I'm going to a wedding tomorrow. I'm looking forward to the free cake.

if you wanna be you, be you

2009-10-10T02:17:00.003-04:00

Sunday is National Coming Out Day. In honour of this, today at school in the campus center they had a closet door made out of a bed sheet hung up from the ceiling and asked people to come forward and proclaim their sexuality in front of every one over a microphone - orientation didn't matter as straights were welcome to come forward as well. After delivering their message in front of essentially almost all 1850 students, they would be applauded and cheered on. I ask: why? What is the point? Why is sexuality so important that we feel the need to proclaim at the top of our lungs for everyone to hear? I don't care if you're gay, straight, bi, tri, pan, trans, and so forth. You do whatever the hell you want to, whatever the hell makes you happy. But it's your business, not mine. Just like my sexuality is my business not yours. Sexuality isn't something to celebrate. Sexuality doesn't affect your personality or who you are as a person. Or rather, it shouldn't. There are so many other qualities to a person that should be celebrated. Why celebrate sexuality and not honesty or respect? I care more about whether or not a person is going to be truthful and trustworthy than whether they're eyeing the hot chick or the hunky dude in the back of the room.

So why make a big deal out of something that shouldn't be a big deal? I don't know - because the media says so, because Jesus says it's wrong. Or maybe it's just because we're too damn afraid to be ourselves for once in our lives and the only way we can bring ourselves to doing that is knowing that we're going to be met with a campus-wide standing ovation and high fives or hugs. If that's the case, then quite frankly I pity you. If you can't just be yourself because you're afraid of what people will think then you don't deserve that applause. Being yourself doesn't take effort at all, and it shouldn't take even the slightest bit of courage.

So if you like guys or if you like girls or if you like both (and maybe then some), then that's fine. You go right ahead and do that. But why feel the need to bring all the attention on you? What makes you so special? Your sexuality doesn't make you any different or any more special than me. You don't need a microphone, and you don't need a special day - all you need is to be yourself.

On that subject:

New Anti-Smoking Ads Warn Teens 'It's Gay To Smoke'

and they can shit on your head

2009-10-09T00:01:00.002-04:00

I wish I had an Irish friend so I could force them to read this novel and tell me how shitty of a job I am doing writing from an Irish perspective.

p-p-p-p-poker face p-p-p-p-poker face

2009-10-06T02:24:00.001-04:00

I just posted this as a note on Facebook:

RULES: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs (+) on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 random people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. Two of my best friends live in the UK, and it really sucks not having them nearby when I need them or even being able to conveniently call or text them; some days are worse than others. I make up for it by spending an almost unhealthy amount of time with the only person in the country that is on the same level as them.

2. I've never claimed to have a photographic memory (excepting when I was like 5 years old and was just trying to be cool), but for whatever reason my memories of London are more vivid than anything else. To this day I can still picture things exactly as they were. I could draw you a map from Holloway Road to Doughty Street with just a few errors and could easily diagram my flat as well as the Crosby household.

3. I started writing a novel a few weeks ago and right now I'm at 20k words - give or take. I had initially wanted to be done by the end of the month, but I got behind. Regardless, I'm pretty proud of myself. This is the most I've ever written on one thing and the most dedicated I've ever been to a piece of literature. I've started novels before, but always get bored or distracted and never finish, but that's not the case with this one. It's divided into five parts, and I just have parts three and four left to write, and I know exactly what is going to be included in them (for the most part). It will be ready to be sent out to publishers by Christmas so long as nothing terrible happens between now and then.

4. My left knee has been bothersome for probably close to two years now. My right knee has joined it and now I can barely stand to sit through class sometimes because I'm in so much pain. I see a sports physician next Wednesday and then most likely a surgeon after the MRI that he will most likely order.

5. I've lost track of how many funerals I've been to. I'm only 20 years old and I've probably been to more funerals than some of your parents have. I haven't even gone to every single funeral for every person I know who has died either. If I had, I don't think I'd fear death anymore.

6. It used to be that I only read "classic" books, but my three favourites books (About a Boy, The Kite Runner, Jarhead) were all written within the past ten years.

7. I have a habit of making friends that are younger than me, which makes things difficult at times. I absolutely hate that I can't experience high school with them or go to dances, football games, etc. with them. Along with that, since they're younger than me their friends are obviously younger than me too, which can make things akward when they want them to come along too.

8. 27, 72, and any variations of those numbers are my absolute favourite. I've honestly no idea why. When I'm out driving I tend to notice the 27 mile marker more often than any other.

9. I'm convinced that thanks to the Three Jeffs (Easthon, Fay, McPheron), very few people at my high school knew my first name as the three of them always referred to me simply as 'Dill'.

10. I once accidentally stole a school lunch tray. Joel Anderson put it in my bag when I took my own tray up. We later stole two more. One of them remains under the set in my car.

11. When I was in London I threw up all over a bathroom stall at the University College London's student's union.

12. Human sexuality has always been a topic that I've found highly interesting. The only reason I don't pursue a degree involving that is because I have no idea what I would do with it.

13. Even though I own an iPod Touch, I still continue to purchase CDs and listen to them.

14. I would do absolutely anything for a chance to be in London on the 28th.

15. Sometimes I like to pretend that I am an artist by scribbling out song lyrics in a kinda artsy fashion.

16. Bob Dylan is my absolutely all-time favourite musical artist. I've seen him live twice and would go see him again and again and again even though he sounds absolutely horrible anymore these days.

17. Even though I'm going to school to be a history teacher I can't help myself from trying to get someone to find their inner-writer. I think most everyone can write, it's just a matter of being able to find what you're capable of writing, figuring out how you're able to write it, and then taking the effort to actually write it.

18. As much as I like to help people, I find it difficult to actually comfort someone when they need it. Instead I usually end up just listening, which I guess does help in a way.

19. For whatever reason I have found writing this note to be slightly emotionally draining. It takes a lot for me to be completely open about myself like this. I like it when people tag me in stuff like this, but at the same time I hate it. There are some people I tagged in this who already know a lot of what I've written here because I've told them and talked to them about it - no problem doing that one-on-one with someone I trust. But I don't trust something like 99.9% of the people I'm facebook friends with that will be able to read this. Maybe I don't want them to know that I don't trust them or that I have shit knees. Too late now, I guess.

20. I absolutely cannot stand inconsistent sounds (i.e. music, TV, etc.) or light when I'm sleeping. Sleeping with a fan on is no problem though, and I actually prefer it. If my alarm clock face is too bright I turn it away from my bed. As you might guess, I don't get the best of sleep in my dorm.

21. Even though I have over 100 contacts on MSN, I only speak to 3-5 people on it regularly. I don't even know who the majority of those other contacts are.

22. There are two people whom I tell almost pretty much every little thing to. They know almost every detail of my life. There would be a third person if I was able to speak with him more often. The three of them can predict my every move and have actually finished my sentences before as odd as that sounds, but I've finished some of their sentences before as well.

23. I consider myself to be a Self-Proclaimed Reform Socialist. Meaning, I'm all for equality and fairness. People have certain inalienable rights that they should receive no matter how much or how little money they have in their pockets. In contrast, I'm not a big fan of such a large portion of my paycheck going into Social Security when I'll never get to use it because: A) I'll be a teacher and will collect something else and B) It'll be all dried up by then anyway.

24. I drive a 2001 Chevy Malibu named Francesa. This replaced the 1996 Ford Contour that I used to have. The timing belt broke on it, which ultimately destroyed the entire engine. It died on the side of 47 when I was on my way to meet my dad for lunch and then head back to Wright State. Was not at all a good way to start the day.

25. I'm kind of an internet geek. I've been a member of several messageboards since I first got a computer and the internet about 10 years ago. There's really only one that I frequent now, and I've been a member for around 8 years. I've made loads of great friends from there, even though I've never met some of them. I met a large portion of them though when I was in London last year. We had a large meet-up that involved drinking from around 3pm to around 3-4am. It was a very good night.

when it's said and done will she spit it up and swallow

2009-10-04T22:52:00.006-04:00

I think So Much for the Afterglow might be comparable to (What's the Story) Morning Glory? for best album of the nineties. Both of them include some of my favourite songs from two of my favourite bands, and they're both probably the best albums put out by Everclear and Oasis, respectively. They're both in competition with Weezer of course.

Bob Dylan is coming out with a Christmas album here in a couple weeks. I find that a little ironic. I don't know if I'll get it or not. I've yet to get his last album.

Have you ever heard Allen Ginsberg read "Howl"? It takes a while, but it's worth the listen. You'll feel almost enlightened afterwards.

You can listen to Parts I and II here: http://poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/15308
And Part III here: http://poets.org/viewmedia.php/prmMID/20255

i'm a wind-up toy in an up-down world

2009-10-01T23:28:00.002-04:00

Modern Family is probably one of the funniest things I've seen in a long time. Had my roommate not been wearing headphones he would've given me some odd stares.

I've been fairly unmotivated tonight. Not going to bust out 1000 words tonight I don't think.

sometimes i wish i was like mariella

2009-09-30T22:43:00.001-04:00

Tomorrow I start tutoring at a second middle school. I'll be tutoring a total of three times a week at three different schools with three different age groups. Pray for me.

Narrowing in on 20k.

haligh haligh a lie

2009-09-27T20:10:00.003-04:00

Finally some success with Verizon. They're shipping me a brand new phone and gave us a $20 credit on the next bill.

In novel news, I'm up around 15k. Will write more tonight.

League tomorrow night. Hoping to do well.

we named our children after towns that we've never been to

2009-09-25T23:16:00.002-04:00

Six Reasons to not use Verizon:

1. Voyager #1 in June - dropped calls like it was its job (this was an upgrade, mind you)
2. Voyager #2 - unlocked itself, didn't always respond to my touch
3. Voyager #3 - "like new", keys were horribly worn, was obvious that the screen is what had been replaced, also unlocked itself, also didn't always respond to my touch, would restart on my randomly, internal directional keys didn't always work
4. Voyager #4 - another "like new" phone, it came covered in scratches, didn't even have it activated
5. EnV Touch #1 - I was forunate enough that there was no longer any Voyagers in stock and thus they sent me an EnV Touch instead. Every so often, when I'd flip open this phone the internal screen would remain black until I pressed a button. Then it started to turn off on its own...
6. EnV Touch #2, got it last night - had to have a customer service lady lead me through manually programming it, then when I went to change the background on the external screen, it stopped loading. Stopped loading any time I tried to access 'My Pictures'. Took in into the store and the tech lady was very confused by it, but got it to work. BUT NOW the front screen doesn't work.

Is it too much to ask for a phone that actually works?

stop the ice from getting thinner

2009-09-24T15:09:00.004-04:00

I've been listening to a lot of acoutic-ish indie music lately. Badly Drawn Boy, Bright Eyes, Death Cab for Cutie, Sufjan Stevens, that kind of thing.

I ordered Mika's new album the other day. I'm hoping it will be here soon. I thoroughly enjoyed his debut album, so I'm anticipating this one to be excellent as well. To contrast that, I also ordered Foxy Shazam's last album. I think they actually have a new one coming out soon. I'd really like to see them in concert again sometime. Eric Nally's stage presence is fairly indescribable.

I'm narrowing in on 13k words on my novel. Planning on making it to 15k by the end of the week. I don't think I'm going to have it entirely finished by the end of the month like I had planned, but it will be close. It will definitely be sent out to publishers before Christmas though. I already know who I'm going to have read it, edit it, critique, etc. before I ship off a final product. I'm very confident in this novel. Probably too confident. I'd like to think that this novel will finally be the one thing that works right for me. I'd like to think that a year from now I'll be one of the youngest persons to be on the New York Times Best Sellers List, but I think that's pushing it.

Here's a new snippet for you:

"George the trainer gave me a quick run-through on what was expected of me: how many vacuum cleaners I was supposed to sell in what amount of time, what territory I was to cover, etc. Then he gave me a quick run-down on some tips on how to “pawn off these pieces of shit to those dumbass foreigners”. He apparently didn’t seem to mind that I was a foreigner. George went with me to one house after his ‘training’ and sarcastically told me that I was going to do just fine. With that, he was gone and I was all on my own in the world of door-to-door vacuum cleaner sales.

That first day I sold no vacuum cleaners. On day two I sold no vacuum cleaners. On day three though, I discovered a small record store that just happened to be hiring. I went into the store pulling behind me the vacuum cleaner that I was supposed to be selling. I looked rather queer going into this record store dressed in a grey suit pulling a vacuum cleaner behind me, but despite my odd appearance the owner of the store met with me almost immediately. Ten minutes later after having quickly delivered a slightly truncated version of my story, Paul, the owner of the store, told me to be back the next day at 9AM sharp and to lose the suit. He agreed to pay me just less than minimum wage in cash under the table, which I of course accepted. On top of that, he even bought a vacuum cleaner off me – two actually, one for the store and one for his home."

I would of course appreciate any comments or suggestions or inquiries that you might have.

I think I'm going to try my hand at getting published in The New Yorker again. We'll see how that goes. I'll update you in 3-4 months when they respond.

I began the admission process for the education program at my university. I'm confident that I'll get in, but at the same time I am a little worried given my streak of bad luck lately. I won't take no for an answer though.

tell me, who's that funky dude staring back at me?

2009-09-22T13:43:00.001-04:00

I've still yet to buy their last album...

why you bein' a dickhead for?

2009-09-21T23:27:00.001-04:00

I tried to put a poem here, but it didn't copy and paste right, and I can't be bothered to deal with it at the moment. Sorry. Shit happens.

there an angels in your angels

2009-09-20T18:57:00.003-04:00

An autobiography in 30 seconds (or longer):

-I'm a hypocrite.
-I love a good cider, although it always seems to give me a headache.
-Bob Dylan is my absolute favourite, but The Kooks are getting pretty damn close.
-I was inspired to write by a very secretic gentleman from the North of England whom I have never met.
-I have some like 60+ gigs of music, which doesn't include all of my 260+ CDs.
-My gas tank refelects my life: it's never above half-full.
-I appreciate the irony of the previous statement.
-I have chronic knee pain that has yet to be diagnosed. I've been prescribed orthodics which will be here in about a week, but it could take up to four months to see if they work; I can't take another four months of pain.
-The university I attend has a tuition of around $35K a year; I don't know if it's worth it.
-I gave up on practicing organised religion when I was around 8 years old. I haven't been to church since then. I haven't considered myself to be Christian since I was about 13 or 14. I still pray quite often though. There is a difference between being religious and being spiritual.
-I act like I have no money, but I still have more saved up than you.
-Sometimes I pretend to be a musician.
-I've written around 600+ poems/songs in the last six years, but have only written around 25 in the last year. I've been lacking creativity.
-I would very much like to start my own private school one of these days.
-Abortion is the only major topic I haven't and probably won't take a stance on.
-My imagination is horribly overactive. That's why I write. Otherwise I'd probably go (even more) insane.
-I accidentally hit enter and posted this prematurely.
-I'm one of the most generous people ever but in return I have the worst luck ever.
-You should know this by now, but I spent three months living in London last year.

and the night john lennon died

2009-09-20T14:14:00.002-04:00

Here's another snippet for you:

"After my three days of pure, sweet musical ecstasy at Max Yasgur’s farm, I found myself drifting off towards New York City. Although I had flown into New York City when I first arrived in the U.S., I hadn’t really experienced the city much since I had hopped into a taxi straight to Bethel almost as soon as I landed. I really had no idea what to expect, but I found myself drawn to the city life. I had spent 17 years and a few months of my life living in a tiny village not far from the capitol city of Ireland, and I had no desire to live in such a small area again. New York City was calling me, and I dare not decline her invitation.

I had just enough money for a deposit on a studio apartment in the Lower East Side with a small amount left over, which I hoped to be sufficient enough to last for a week or two until I got a job. It ended up only taking me two days to find a job, although I figured I would need a second job so that I could be able to pay the bills and still have enough left over at the end of the month so that I could move on to another city. Now that I was here in the United States I was determined to see as much of it as possible.

I found my first job in the classifieds of a local newspaper: it was selling vacuum cleaners door-to-door."

TCW is back!

2009-09-20T12:28:00.003-04:00

This is why I never update my blog: I never know what to write. So this is me rambling.

...and that's all I got. So here's some Joe Cocker for you:

i'd throw in my bifold if i thought it would help

2009-09-18T21:03:00.006-04:00

If everyone in the world looked at this picture, then I think all the world's problems would be solved.

from: http://trishvandenberg.deviantart.com/

way up in the west hills

2009-09-17T16:55:00.004-04:00

I forgot I had a blog. Did you miss me? All none of you who read it?

I started working on a novel. Here's a snippet from it:

"By night fall, I had finally found someone who agreed to share a portion of their tent with me. I cannot recall what her name was, the girl who loaned me a corner of her tent. I didn’t get much sleep that night, the first night of Woodstock – my first day in the United States of America. She was the reason why I didn’t get much sleep. She was there with friends, although for one reason or another whether it be fate or coincidence we happened to be only two souls in the tent. Needless to say, nature took over. We were fortunate that she had a condom on her. This was the first time I had ever been with a girl in any way. I kissed a girl once when I was 13, but that was it. I didn’t know what I was doing. I was nervous, and she could tell. She knew this was my first time, but she was nice and didn’t say anything; I very much appreciated that. In about 37.5 seconds flat my day jumped from one level to another. I lost my virginity at Woodstock on my first day in the United States of America. I think most everyone would call that the best day ever – a day they would never forget, no matter how severe the Alzheimer’s disease. But that aside, I wasn’t expecting to get much sleep at all during those three days anyway. I knew I wouldn’t need any acid in order to hallucinate – especially not the brown acid that was going around.

When I woke up the next morning on day two of Woodstock, August 16th, I was in the tent naked and alone. I had no idea where she went. I had no idea who she was. I didn’t exactly anticipate ever seeing her again, and I don’t think I even minded all that much really. I considered waiting around to see if she might show up, but I decided against that and instead opted to slide out of the sweaty sleeping bag and get dressed so I could attempt to locate some food, although I knew the chances of that were slim to nil."

You dig? It's inspired by something I saw on the History Channel.

I saw Inglorious Basterds not long ago. It has been added to my list of favourite films. 'Epic' is perhaps the only way to describe it.

a little bag of cocaine - so who's the girl wearing my dress?

2009-04-23T00:39:00.001-04:00

when you get hit in the head with a rock (it ruins the moment)
you know i was out walking the other night
out walking, wandering wondering pondering and ever so lost in thought
and then i turned around and looked all around and realised:
i was lost in more than just thought
and so i had to take it all in
so i laid down in the grass
and closed my eyes, but my mind didn't follow
and things came flowing in but i dont think they could find a way out
i couldn't see past all the pictures of europe: big ben and the river thames
and i could hear kate nash in the background
and i think she was singing a song for you
because she's better at putting the words in the right order than i am
and she seems to have a better sense of rhythm and rhyme
and then your time came along:
you passed through, but lingered - oh how you lingered!
you were in focus for quite some time
longer than bob dylan, even
and that was a good couple of moments that made the time fly by
but then something hit me in the head
and it knocked me out of my unconsciousness.

relax, zipperhead

2009-04-22T19:05:00.004-04:00

I'm drowning in Virginia Woolf. I have eight books either by her or about her stacked under my desk. I'd like to think I'm stalking her. Somehow I'm going to compress all of that into ten to twelve pages.

Right now I'm supposed to be working on a different ten to twelve page paper. That one is about Thomas Jefferson and the drafting of the Declaration of Independence of the United States of America. It's mostly going to be B.S. from Wikipedia, I think. Even though I'm a history education major... I'm such a horrible student.

In addition to those two papers I have an eight to ten page paper on privatisation in education - whatever the fuck that is. I think it's mostly going to be B.S. too.

I wanted to put a clip from Gran Torino here, but they disabled embedding. Bastards. Here's a quote instead: "Oh, I've got one. A Mexican, a Jew, and a colored guy go into a bar. The bartender looks up and says, 'Get the fuck out of here.'"

It would be really nice if I were in London now.

come on, take your dreams where nobody can find them

2009-03-19T19:19:00.003-04:00

I finally saw Slumdog Millionaire last week. And then I saw it again last night. It's a good film. But The Curious Case of Benjamin Button is better. It should have swept the Oscars. For one, it is not a realist film with the most obscure plot. It also switches from Hindi to English for no apparent reason other than for the simple reason that the child actors probably did not know English and that many of the actors were not actually from India (i.e Dev Patel). Plus, people don't like subtitles.

Kate Nash is going to be the mother of my children. I've decided that. Nevermind that we've never met and she's something ten years older than me.

yeah, like you can see clint eastwood in her pussy

2009-03-12T12:10:00.004-04:00

This is why the Cold War Kids is the only band today that is comparable to Bob Dylan.

Notice any similarities? Those are two of the best songs of their respective generations. When you listen to the Cold War Kids the Dylan influence is ever-present. It is so blatant that you cannot even ignore it. But it doesn't take away from the music. It doesn't hinder or hurt the Cold War Kids. In fact, it makes them stronger. I mistakenly let a friend borrow their album after I purchased it. I didn't see it again for about two years. I had forgotten just how good of an album it is.

I recently watched the film L.I.E. starring Paul Dano and Brian Cox. I had been wanting to watch it for quite some time, but have been unable to find it. But then I found it at my school's library in the AV center. They had just recently got it in stock. The film was nowhere near as intense as what was expected, but it most certainly did not fail to impress.

I am still trying to figure out why Paul Dano does not have an Oscar to his name.

when soul meets body

2008-08-31T11:44:00.004-04:00

I'm terrible at this blogging thing.

I've seen several films since I last posted, but I'm not sure if I'll be able to remember them all.

I've listened to a lot of music since then as well. I'm listening to the new Death Cab for Cutie album right now. It's pretty good. Lately I've been listening to a lot of Iggy Pop though. His music with The Stooges is raw energy. It's what music is supposed to be.

College was the last film I saw in theatres. It was awful. Worst movie I have seen in quite some time. Before that was Death Race, which wasn't all that great either.

But before that was Tropic Thunder, which is only describable as "amazing". This has been a great year for Robert Downey Jr.

I forget what else I saw. What other comedies have come out recently?

I leave for London in like... 18-ish days. I'll try to update this more often then. So you can know what's going on on the other side of the Atlantic and whatnot.

Last night I read until almost 2AM, which I haven't done for quite some time. Probably since the last Harry Potter book. I was reading Slam by Nick Hornby. I like Nick Hornby. He has a quirky style. You should read About a Boy by him. And then watch the film.

you've got an oscar and i've got an assload of peabodies

2008-08-06T23:53:00.006-04:00

I saw The Dark Knight again last night. Took the kid next door to see it. He enjoyed it, liked it better than the first. He's a smart kid.

The new installment in the Mummy series was surprisingly good. It didn't bomb like I figured it would.

I've started working on an old short story from forever ago again. I might've already said that. I cannot recall. I need to get it finished.

I'm thinking of transferring to Ohio Wesleyan. Wright State is too much bullshit for me.

Is it time for London yet? Only another month and a half or so.

anthem
now folks let me tell you something
let me lay this all down for you
i'm going to make this crisp and clear
gonna make it easy for you to understand
so here it goes folks, here it goes

you know, i've been through so much bullshit to be here tonight
i've been to too many funerals in my few years
and i've seen far too many people shedding tears
but i never tire of people holding hands
or all the rock and roll fans
so i spend my time writing these words and sometimes spinning rhymes
but well that's only when i find the time
but these days i'm too busy living
so why don't you just come on and live with me?
oh yeah, won't you live with me?
'cause i could use your comfort
or at least a partner in crime
yeah, won't you be my partner in crime?
we'll line the streets
get folks up on their feet
'cause i'm tired of all this, ain't you?
so let's make some change, come let's make some change
'cause i don't need oil when i got the wind blowing
or water in the riverbeds flowing
we can turn this black into green
and change this red into blue
and it's just too bad everything can't just be black and white
'cause i'd like to erase these shades of grey
and let's just make everyone and everythig the same
i think that might keep some of us in line
so let's march march march in the aisles
and mosh our way through this underground
'cause we're coming up and out on top
gonna make the changes that are destined to come
and there's nothing you can do so just toss back another bottle of rum
'cause you might as well get drunk as your world falls apart
and here comes that brand new fresh start
'cause we could all use a change sometime
and that change is a-comin', a-comin' now

i just tea bagged your drum set

2008-07-28T21:53:00.006-04:00

I think Step Brothers is now my favourite Apatow/McKay flick. And it's my second favourite Will Ferrell flick: Stranger Than Fiction is still number one on my list, but then again I am quite fond of Marc Forster, so I'm a little biased.

Speaking of Marc Forster, the new James Bond marks his first action flick. His last movie was the very touching and very dramatic The Kite Runner, based upon the novel of the same name. Before that, the aforementioned Stranger Than Fiction. Finding Neverland and Monster's Ball were him too. It'll be interesting to see what he does with James Bond. I'll be in London when it comes out, so that will be ace.

I've been listening to The Arctic Monkeys a lot lately. They're pretty much fantastic. You should listen to them.

Recently they've been playing this terrible PSA on the radio about the education system. You might have heard it. It begins with a kid listing off a bunch of countries (most are European nations, if not all of them) and then this obnoxious woman comes on saying that all these countries have better schools/education systems than the USA, which is pretty much a given. She provides some statistics on how much better they score than us on math and science, all the while the kid is still in the background naming off numerous countries. So far, so good. Then she says we need to crack down, that we're falling behind. Okay, I'm digging it. But then she says that the best schools attract the best jobs, implying that the best paying jobs are going to move to the countries with the best education systems. This is where she loses me: no corporation is going to move its corporate headquarters to Belgium. Instead, they might open a branch there or pay the best Belgian they can find to come to the USA to work at their headquarters. Americans aren't going to lose their jobs to Europeans like the PSA implies. They're not going to lose them to Mexicans either (because the Mexicans take the jobs we DON'T want and WON'T do), but that's another story for another time.

and i guess that was your accomplice in the wood chipper

2008-07-21T16:46:00.004-04:00

So after my last entry I decided to look into who some of the contenders for best picture may be, and it is my prediction that it will be one of the following:

-Martin McDonagh's In Bruges starring Colin Farrell, Brendan Gleeson, and Ralph Fiennes; limited release 8 February
-Spike Lee's Miracle at St. Anna starring Joseph Gordon-Levitt; set to be released 26 September
-Oliver Stone's W. starring Josh Brolin and Elizbeth Banks; set to be released 17 October
-John Hillcoat's The Road starring Viggo Mortensen; set to be released 26 November
-Baz Luhrmann's Australia starring Hugh Jackman; set to be released 14 November
-Ron Howard's Frost/Nixon starring Michael Sheen and Frank Langella; set to be released 5 December
-Sam Mendes' Revolutionary Road starring Leonardo DiCaprio and Kate Winslet; set to be released 26 December
-Edward Zwick's Defiance starring Daniel Craig; set to be released 12 December
-David Fincher's The Curious Case of Benjamin Button starring Brad Pitt and Cate Blanchett; set to be released 19 December
-Joel and Ethan Cohen's Burn After Reading starring Brad Pitt, George Clooney, Frances McDormand (duh!), and John Malkovich; set to be released 12 September
-Christopher Nolan's The Dark Knight starring Christian Bale, Heath Ledger, and Aaron Eckhart; released 18 Jully
-Ridley Scott's Body of Lies starring Leonardo DiCaprio and Russel Crowe; set to be released 10 October

Or is too much to ask for the Cohen Bros to get nominated for Best Picture two years in a row? Hell, maybe they can get two Oscars in a row. But really, if a comic book flick ever gets Best Picture, it will be The Dark Knight. Although, it would be amazing if In Bruges could get the nod...

All or most of the nomations for Best Actor, Actress and Supporting Actor, Actress will probably come from those films too. Supporting Actor is almost guaranteed to go to Heath Ledger, I think, but Ralph Fiennes, Brendan Gleeson, George Clooney, and Robert Downey Jr. (for Charlie Bartlett), and Aaron Eckhart will be his competition.

nothing in his pockets but knives and lint

2008-07-20T18:51:00.003-04:00

It's been too long since I've written to this.

I've decided that Aaron Eckhart and Heath Ledger are two of my favourite actors. But not because of The Dark Knight - that just reassured my choice. Christian Bale is up there too. But again, not because of The Dark Knight. And Christopher Nolan is probably one of the best directors of today. And not just because of The Dark Knight.

Have you seen Bill? Starring Eckhart, Logan Lerman, Elizabeth Banks, and Jessica Alba? It's pretty much amazing. You should check it out. I've never seen a bad film starring Aaron Eckhart (although I never watched No Reservations...). Thank You For Smoking is amazing. Bill is awesome, like I just said. He was awesome as Two Face - better than Tommy Lee Jones, I think. Conversations With Other Women starring him and Helena Bonham Carter is probably one of the most interesting flicks I've seen. The Black Dahlia wasn't as good as expected, but it was still good nonetheless. I don't remember him in The Missing, but I remember it being a good film. Paycheck was pretty good too. I need to watch the rest of his movies.

I need to watch all of Heath Ledger's too. And Christian Bale's. And I've seen most of Christopher Nolan's films, but not all of them. Have you seen the Prestige? It's hard to follow, but I haven't met anyone who didn't like it. Insomnia starring Robin Williams and Al Pacino is really good too. One of Williams' best roles. I like him much better in serious roles like that. I heard he was considered for the part of The Joker. I'm glad he didn't get it. But I think he would make a really good Riddler - whom I think is going to show up in the next Batman (if Nolan attempts to live up to the hype of The Dark Knight that is).

If you want to see Ledger in Bale in another movie together, watch I'm Not There - that flick about Bob Dylan. I mentioned it on here once before. Ledger plays an actor who stars in a biopic about Bale's character, I think. It's something like that.

I don't think anyone will be trying to make another Batman series anytime soon. Nor do I think The Joker is going to be included in a Batman story for a long, long time - if ever again. The only person I can think of who can even touch Ledger right now in regards to the Oscar for Best Supporting Actor is Aaron Eckhart as Harvey Dent/Two Face. But there is still another half a year to go almost, so we'll see what happens.

Did you ever see The Lords of Dogtown? It was after seeing that film that I knew Heath Ledger was going to make it big. The Dark Knight has only assured this. I'm anticipating his real final film: The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus. It's a Terry Gilliam film starring Tom Waits and Christopher Lee, as well as Ledger. After Ledger died, though, Gilliam made a couple clever rewrites and now the role of 'Tony' will be played by four actors: Ledger, Johnny Depp, Colin Ferrell, and Jude Law - four of the best 'young' actors of today. It's guaranteed to be amazing, I think.

I also watched Charlie Bartlett and Rocket Science recently. They're both very good movies.

i'm an oil man

2008-06-16T00:04:00.002-04:00

Turkey got lucky today. Also, sucks to be Barbados/hooray USA!

State tournament this weekend. Yay.

i'm a plainview, but you can call me dan
sometimes i like to call myself the beatnik with a heart of gold
but when i open my chest all i find is an acre of oil
and i think, gee i could make some money out of this
but all the rich cat tycoons seemed to think it was tainted by blood
and i couldn't seem to figure out the problem with that
or how it was any different from anything else they have in stock
so they gave me a penny for my thoughts and kicked me out the door
but in retrospect, i dont think i would've been all that fond
of having an oil well sticking out the front of my chest
'cause i think that might make hugging a little awkward and difficult
not to mention procreation and probably eating too
although i doubt i'll be eating anytime soon.

Wij houden van Oranje!

2008-06-13T23:55:00.001-04:00

Fuck you France, hahahah.

hollaaaaaaaaaaaaaand!!

2008-06-13T00:03:00.002-04:00

I'm picking The Netherlands. How about you?

This can't be embedded: http://sports.espn.go.com/broadband/video/videopage?&brand=null&videoId=3434399&n8pe6c=2

Although I was pretty fond of Spain's victory over Russia.

the silky and the shiny

2008-06-11T00:56:00.003-04:00

Why the fuck are people playing video games? I can't wait to be out of this hellhole. Gooooooooooooooooodbye dormlife!

But on the subject of college, UMich is looking pretty damn tasty.

But England is looking tastier.

I'm unsure of Weezer's new album. I expected to be the big comeback they've been needing. But I don't think it was: it seems a little pretentious at times, I think.

Adam Sandler's new flick was decent. You Don't Mess With the Zohan... certainly creative. Punk-Drunk Love is still my favourite Sandler film though.

gonna grab my trombone blue

2008-06-03T16:46:00.004-04:00

these can't be embedded:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=d5uKHa9Gmks
http://youtube.com/watch?v=oCeKkJlMJDQ

Bob Dylan is the Willy Wonka of rock 'n' roll. Maggie's Farm at Newport epitomizes rock 'n' roll. It is high adrenaline, pure, raw, and all natural. Straight up rock 'n' roll. Straight up folk. This is what music really is.

yes, it's chaos, clocks, and watermelons - you know, it's - it's everything

2008-06-01T15:27:00.003-04:00

Why haven't I written to this in ages? Damn... I'm lazy. I've seen a few good films since I last wrote on here.

Indiana Jones was good. I think. The ending kind of through me off. Was I watching Stargate or Indiana Jones?

A Scanner Darkly was an interesting flick. I'm not really sure what the point of it was though.

I'm Not There wasn't quite what I expected, but Bob Dylan is the greatest, thus it was a great film. Cate Blanchett made a hot Bob Dylan - or rather, Judie Quinn.

The original Lord of the Flies from 1963 wasn't quite as good as what I expected. Watching Simon get killed was horrific, however. I'm glad I was finally able to watch it.

I want to see The Strangers.

dancing on that highway sixty-one
did i ever tell you about the time i flew away on a dirigible?
bob dylan was there, or hell, it might've been billy the kid
but it was a good time full of shot gun shells and harmonicas
we watched a film and drank tequila and flew over the football game below
and that was when i decided to jump out 'cause the kid had a pistol
and i fell and i kept on falling and falling until the ground came flying up
and the judges gave me a seven-point-nine for my faceplant
so i of course had a few words with those geeks
and they promptly changed their score to a ten-dot-nine
and i think i was pretty well-pleased with that
but then that dirigible came crashing down
and i had to jump out of the way lest i be crushed by that inflated hot air
and that's when everyone started screaming and running and hollering
so the kid pulled out his guitar and played a little song
and everyone sat back down as calm as could be
so we saddled up on some horses and road off into the horizon
and on our way there we ran into jesus and buddha and even krishna too
and the three of us had a gay old party with wine and cheese
we danced until the night took its rest
and then we parted ways and never saw those folk again.

i drink your milkshake

2008-05-23T01:08:00.001-04:00

New shoes are always nice. Especially when they're your twentieth-ish pair.

There was something else I wanted to blog about, but I forget what it was. Damnit.

Indiana Jones tomorrow night.

you get me closer to god

2008-05-19T13:38:00.002-04:00

I'm listening to Trent Reznor on The World Cafe on NPR. Trent Reznor epitomizes what the music industry should be. It's too bad more people can't be like him; he's actually not all that scary, nor a sexual deviant (as far as I know).

Now MGMT is playing. They're pretty good. They're friends with a friend of mine, I think. He's on their top friends on MySpace anyhow.

The radio is starting to get static-y. How unfortunate.

Indiana Jones comes out Thursday. I'm seeing it Friday.

A woman got hit by a car this morning. I think I knew her. I don't think she's all right.

My birthday is Thursday.

you're getting your picture taken at ground zero: do you smile?

2008-05-17T20:09:00.005-04:00

David Archuleta annoys me. Nay - he drives me fuckin' insane. He's a goddamn cuntbag bitchwhore slutskank. He needs to cough up the phlegm out of his throat. My god... and while he's at it, he can come out of the closet too, so that way he doesn't have to deal with all the little girl cooties and can go straight for the little boy behind.

2008-05-15T19:48:00.004-04:00

My roommate is eating a meatball sub. The smell of it makes me want to vomit. Also the fact that it's a meatball sub with everything on it makes me sick to my stomach.

I drank my first Starbucks beverage today. A green tea Frappucino, or however the fuck you spell it. It was pretty... weird.

I might transfer to the University of Michigan. Michigan seems like it could be fun.

It is time to go to London yet? I'm ready to be on the other side of the Atlantic, where I can legally purchase alcohol. That should be fun, right? Right.

Now he's munching on BBQ Lays potato chips. That's his same dinner a couple times a week. I'm not sure how he does it. He'll eat a big ass brownie when he's done with that. And then gorge on Little Debbie snack cakes later this evening.

peaches is such a good girl

2008-05-14T22:48:00.002-04:00

I've discovered that I like real movies. You know, the ones about what really happens. The ones with all the nudity and disturbing elements. Those are my favourite kinds.

I'd like to watch every film that involves Larry Clark and/or Harmony Korine. I think they might be two of my new favourite filmmakers.

If we gave everyone in the world a homemade cinnamon roll and a vanilla shake, then the world would be a better place.

i'd buy you a green dress (but not a real green dress - that's cruel)

2008-05-14T18:49:00.005-04:00

"Brian Wilson" is probably the best song written in the nineties. Don't you agree?

Also, my arm hurts. Because of bowling. Fuck you bowling. You're such a cunt.

And I need to clean. Goddamnit.

you'll be the next ravi shankar; you'll be bigger than the beatles

2008-05-12T19:05:00.001-04:00

Speed Racer was pretty amazing. My eyes had to readjust to the dullness of reality afterwards.

Also, look up Peachcake on Myspace and give them a listen.

"why you being a dickhead for"

2008-05-10T00:12:00.000-04:00

Why the fuck is Harrison Ford so goddamn fidgety?

"sometimes i wish i was like mariella"

2008-05-08T23:35:00.001-04:00

I'm thinking about writing a screenplay. Based upon and inspired by the songs of Kate Nash.

"i knew a guy who was dyslexic, but he was also cross-eyed, so everything came out right."

2008-05-08T15:55:00.002-04:00

"This afternoon, we walked into a fruit store, and the clerk thinks I'm some out-of-town hick. 'Those apples will be two bucks each," he tells me. That's where I outsmarted him. I pass over a five. And as he's about to give me a dollar change, I say, "Keep it, we're even. On the way in, I stepped on a grape.'"

"i know that you did 'cause your friend said that you liked it"

2008-05-08T00:39:00.002-04:00

I can't stop listening to Kate Nash. Is that a problem?

My math teacher is a crazy Russian bitch.

And my Geography teacher is stuck in the Cold War, sometimes.

It's ironic, eh?

I submitted that paper to my English teacher. Let's see if I get a passing grade.

cocaine with a side of pomegranate
i think it's interesting sometimes how those whom you love the most
are always the ones who hurt you the most in the end
and then you're left feeling confused, a little
because it's hard to understand why someone like that
would betray you quickly and easily
do they not even realize how cruel they are?
do they not understand the impact of what they've done?
do they still love you? oh i doubt it

because i don't love you

do you love me?

i didn't think so

it took you a while to respond, i noticed

odd.

(but not as odd as this predicament, this goddamn problematic predicament)

it sucks to be human, doesn't it?
and sometimes you feel numb, completely numb
(comfortabley numb, you ask - but i doubt it)
and even though you're numb, you still feel everything
every little push, poke, jab, and cattle prod
yes, that's right - cattle prod
have you never been prodded with a cattle prod?
it's not fun, i tell you
did i ever tell you about the time i got prodded with a cattles prod?
i didn't think so
it hurt
your uncle did it
or at least he was your uncle once
or at least i thought he might be one day
but then he decided to run away
i guess he wasn't old enough to understand
even though when i was that at age i knew the meaning of life
katie couric tried to interview me about it once, but i said no.

"birds can fly so high, and they can shit on your head"

2008-05-06T23:47:00.003-04:00

Have you ever seen the film Gummo? If not, watch it. NOW.

I think Kate Nash is probably some of the best music I've heard in a long time. I literally listened to her album nonstop for two days once. Seriously. It's an amazing album. Not a bad song on it. And it's just easy to connect to. It's like she's singing to you a little bit. You need to hear it. You're missing out if you don't listen to it. Trust me.

"i married isis on the fifth day of may, but i could not hold onto her very long"

2008-05-06T16:51:00.002-04:00

Would you believe me if I said I was listening to Sugar Ray right now? Sometimes I get nostalgic and listen to music I enjoyed in fourth grade. With the exception of Smash Mouth.

I think I might've ingested human blood the other day as well. So don't let the token imcompetent jackass at Subway make your sub. Because he likes to play with knives.

I saw Iron Man this past weekend. Not once. But twice. It was a decent movie. Nothing spectacular. It seemed to have a lot of character flaws though. Lacked a fair amount of character development in regards to any character who wasn't wearing a suit made of metal. Indiana Jones is going to blow it out of the water, though.

But speaking of Indiana Jones: it comes out on my birthday. Which is odd seeing as how my birthday is on a Thursday. But regardless, I'm going to see it opening day or the next day. With friends, of course. It looks pretty fucking fantastic.

"i wish that for just one time you could stand inside my shoes; then you'd know what a drag it is to see you"

2008-04-30T23:01:00.006-04:00

I'm procrastinating. Again. Like always. What else is new, right? Hell, I'm actually procrastinating writing this blog. Shame, right?

I'm supposed to be writing a paper for my English 102 class from last quarter explaining why I deserve a passing grade, and it's not going too well. Mostly because I haven't a clue why I have to write this paper. How on earth did I not get a passing grade, right?

But anyway, I'm probably going to transfer from this hellhole anyhow. Wright State is terrible. It sucks. The University of Washington is at the top of my list right now, but it's pretty damn expensive for out-of-state students.

Also, listen to some Dylan and watch Forgetting Sarah Marshall.

why don't you just call me the libertine: redux
i hear kentucky is nice this time of year
or at least it has to be better than here
but i really don't think it'd take all that much
to be better than this place called here
because here isn't somewhere else
it's just just here, still right here
and here isn't where i want to be
or at least i don't think that here is there
but it seems to be confusing at times, i think
and i forget where here is even sometimes
or at least that's what i try to tell myself
in order to make the time jusy fly on by
but that only seems to work just part of the time
and the rest of the time, well,
that's when i let our a great big damn sigh
and scream out a god awful cry
and i plant my sandal-clad feet upon the ground -
you know, the ones they say jesus likes to wear -
and i walked and i walked and i walked
oh goddamn did i walk
i walked so far that i landed in a place called seattle
and it tickled my fancy just a little bit, i think
'cause i cannot recall ever having been there before
except maybe in another life as a feline
or hell, it might've even been as the ayatollah
but then i realized that i was falling
and boy did it hurt when i landed on that needlepoint
but then i looked around and didn't seem to mind so much
because i think i had the best view in town
and sometimes i'd like to think that everyone is a little jealous
when they see me sitting up so high in the air
and that's what keeps me going sometimes, i think
for that's the kind of feeling that you need sometimes
it gives you that warm, fuzzy feeling inside
and makes you think that everything is going to be just fine
but then you make one wrong little move
and everything slips and falls and the ground comes crashing up
and that's not a fun feeling when your face is smashed on the pavement
your senses become overwhelmed with a sensation of red and sodium
and it's not really all that pleasant a sight to those around
and especially not to your guardian angel
but she wasn't too fond of having to follow after you anyhow
nor was she fond of your inconvenient perch
for she's actually afraid of heights, which is a little ironic when you think about it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zicR2P3wb1Q

"three little birds"

2008-04-15T19:39:00.001-04:00

i believe in a god (that doesn't belong to you)
i pray i pray i pray
i pray everynight
that everything will be all right
but you don't believe when i say
that i believe, yeah that i believe
in a being so high above

my dogma might differ
but i still believe
yeah, i still believe

i believe in a thing called love
i believe in freedom
and i believe in equality
and i believe in you
and sometimes even me

and i pray i pray i pray
i pray everynight
that everything will be all right

i pray i pray i pray
i pray everynight
that everything will be all right

oh won't everything be all right?

"i'll stay fierce, and i'll stay wild"

2008-04-14T12:48:00.001-04:00

"it's okay; everything will be all right"
that phrase haunts me sometimes
as i lie in bed staring at the ceiling
counting the ceiling tiles that aren't even there
or sometimes i'm just trying to sleep
but usually that thought of you
lurks over my conscience and even my consciousness
for i don't think those mistakes you make
are ever going to be all right
whether they be mine or yours (or even ours)
because time is gonna catch you
you're going to lose that trust you've never found
and then what will you say
when you've gone and fucked it up
and lost everything you never had to lose

"i think i'll have the bottle to myself"

2008-04-10T14:08:00.000-04:00

it'd be nice to hear (that swing dance song)
hey do you remember that time
when the earth still orbited the sun
and everything was perfect
you know, just for once
but that was so damn long ago
and things have changed
and time has gone on
and life has taken place
and the results are always the same
no matter if it's you or me
but i'm still going to love you just the same
so can't you feel those waves crash
and hear the moon crack
because that's how it feels, sometimes
when you're alone and afraid,
staring at the ceiling, and hiding behind the English flag
so just blow on that harmonica
it'll make the days pass on
and maybe she'll show up one day
and maybe your fortune will be right
and then maybe then everything might seem all right
but only once the phone rings, i think.

"i must eat so many lemons 'cause i am so bitter"

2008-04-08T19:13:00.000-04:00

you just gotta give it some time
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry i did this to you
but it had to be done
or so i used to think
i'm not sure if it was right
but i know it wasn't wrong
but this outcome didn't work
quite as how it was planned
but i need you
and i need you now
i'm sorry,
i don't know what else there is to do
don't know what else there is to say
other than i love you
so won't you come back
and let's just forget
and go back to last week
when everything was just fine.

"i don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now"

2008-04-08T01:51:00.001-04:00

an impatient realization
it takes time,
sometimes
to realize
what goes up
and how it comes down
and where it falls
and how it lands
so you have to have
some amount of patience
so you must pass the time
just twiddle your thumbs
and maybe everything
will turn out all right
you can hope and pray
that the answer will come
but it's already here
you just have to realize
and do what is right
just watch the tears
and mind the fears
and maybe everything
will turn out all right
or at least that's what
you can hope for
but time is the key
and it's supposed to heal
damn near everything
but i can't wait
not near as long as you
for the problem is here
and the problem is now
so let's toss it all aside
and just figure this out,
okay?

life is interesting at times

2008-04-06T22:24:00.001-04:00

the reflection is still consistent to what is really seen
new facts may surface
and secrets might get told
but i'm still me
and you're still you
and we are still us
so what if the story has been said
for the mirror still speaks the same
and we still remain
so don't let the memories fade
just let those good emotions stay
for nothing has changed.

the fall

2008-04-02T22:08:00.000-04:00

I'm going to London Met... in London, England. hoorah!

one of these days

2008-04-01T15:19:00.001-04:00

I think I'm going to start composing papers on education and the world thereof.

"i don't want to hear you tell me everything is wonderful now"

2008-04-01T00:19:00.001-04:00

I should've applied to Columbia. Fuck.

i've been needing to write this for a while now

2008-03-28T09:47:00.001-04:00

and you thought you'd never see the return of that pointy-eared fraud
part one

it had been many years since they had last seen him
and all the creatures and humankind were curious
as to when they would ever see him again
or if they would at all, in fact

part two

the lot whom i just mentioned right there above
would sometimes gather in the spots
where he would often times like to appear
but there was never the slightest swirl in time
and no pointy-ears nor pointy shoes ever came
not even the slightest crumb of cookie
would dance out of a puff of mysterious smoke

part three

but those people (yes, still the ones from above)
would never give up
they were quite the hopeful people, really
especially the little kittens and sometimes the dogs too
but always definitely the new residents:
those goddamn beautiful rats!
they came to late and never got to meet
that amazing elfen king
so now they pray for the day of his triumphant return
and sometimes they even make offerings
of bits of chocolate and even hammers sometimes

part four

then it was one fine sunny sunday evening
when all went black and the creatures and folk got quite the stir
so they looked to the sky
and saw the most curious spectable they ever had seen:
a strange grey squirrel - nay, i mean swirl

part five

they stared and pointed in near-practice unison
and then all at once they shouted
for a creature descended the sky with a great clash
and they all knew immediately who it was

part six

they greated him kindly:
pushed and shoved and kicked and screamed
so much, they almost called the police
but the creature put his hand in the air
and it all came to a sudden halt

part seven

"ah-hah! 'tis i, your beloved false norton" proclaimed the elf
"and i see you've all been anxiously awaiting
my seemingly triumphant return.
so as you can see, i have returned,
but i can't help but wonder: what is the matter?

you all missed me so much
and you all yearned for my return (please pardon the rhyme),
but none of you ever sought for my presence
even though i've already told you how.

you could have come so quickly,
it would have only taken a brief instance
but nay - you never once closed your eyes
and tried to say goodbye to this wretched sylvan area.

you could have left this behind
and said hello to a new home:
your safe haven
but you refused to do such an apparent monstrosity.

i guess you've no desire
to live in a land where elfs and squirrels
and sometimes even antelopes and beatniks too
will roam free and without persecution.

i've already told you numerous times
what path to take
and i've already instructed you
on how to take it
but it's your job to follow-through
so now maybe this time you'll change your mind
and do that which is right.

but for now i must say goodbye
and bid you a fond farewell
for i cannot stand to be here any longer
and must return home to my ancient land
where i hope you see you one day."

So here's what the clock had to say.

2008-03-25T23:53:00.001-04:00

from 11:11 til 12:34
don't watch the tick-tock
don't watch hand turn around
don't watch the clock
just keep your eyes on the ground
make a wish, don't say it twice
and tomorrow you and i
we'll go off and cry
i'll hold your hand as we run up the hill
where we'll sit under the apple tree
and make our wishes come true on our own
because i wished for things that never came
with the one exception of you.

2008-03-23T23:16:00.005-04:00

So I watched the recent adaptation of the play, Sleuth, starring Michael Caine, Jude Law, and Harold Pinter as "Man on T.V." - who also wrote the screenplay for the film. It was quite the good movie. Very minimalist with lots of crazy angles and whatnot. Great cinematography. Real disappointed that it wasn't nominated for any Oscars or anything. Not even any BAFTAs, which is even more surprising.

The tournament yesterday didn't go quite as well as expected. I had 168, 198, 158, and 210. My dad had 182, 204, 279, and 230. We missed the cut by about 100 pins. Had we both hit our average every game, then we would've had it locked. Oh well. Got three more years to win it!

Happy Zombie Jesus Day by the way.

i just wrote this one

2008-03-21T00:10:00.000-04:00

you don't say no (to the Royalty)
i bet you never would have guessed
that i had lunch with the Queen one fine afternoon
and over sips of tea, well one thing lead to another
and i had the Queen on her back
but then she took over and next thing i knew: i was on my knees
but she was so kind and sweet
such a goddamn gentle lover
and man, she knew how to work that tongue
but would you believe me if i said i never went back
and would you believe me if i said i could't help but wonder
exactly what it was that you were doing right then and there at that very moment
but then i heard that you were next door
with the King.

Dane Cook still loses

2008-03-20T23:08:00.005-04:00

I watched Dan in Real Life last night, and it was a pretty good movie. Dane Cook had a supporting role, and I really hate Dane Cook, but it was still a good movie regardless. Had they cast some other actor in his role, though, I think it would've been much better. The cliche response would be to say that Will Ferrell should have played the role, but I don't think that would have worked. It would have had to have been some new face, I think. Though, appearance-wise, Dane Cook definitely fit the part. But I still don't think he's funny. Jim Gaffigan > Dane Cook. Hey! Maybe Jim Gaffigan could've played the part... that would've been fun.

Anyway, I have just one more exam to take tomorrow morning: history. Shouldn't be too bad. Except for the fact that it's at 10:45... GRR! And then I get to be stuck here all night by myself tomorrow night because I have a bowling tournament down here that next morning. It's a pretty big Adult-Youth tournament, so wish me and my dad luck.

Anyway...

this is how much i love you
hey do you remember that time - it was sometime last year i think
you fell and hit your head and couldn't remember my name
and you thought you were and elf or some such thing
but then you grew pointy ears and we all freaked out - except for me
and that's because i'll always love you
but then you grew pointy teeth too and even more everyone else freaked out
except for me - i still didn't freak out
but that's because i'll always love you
and then your temper pretty much exploded and you grew hair all over
and everyone who hadn't freaked out yet finally freaked out
but i didn't - no, not me
but like i said, that's because i'll always love you
but then you ate my dog and i had to think things through for a bit
but it's okay because she was pretty damn old anyhow
and i love you too much to be angry at you anyway
you could eat my grandma and everything would still be fine
so long as you don't eat me
but then you took a nibble at my left foot and i didn't like that all that much
but it's okay because my feet do look pretty tasty.

with the end of one business comes the birth of a new one

2008-03-19T12:38:00.005-04:00

A couple months ago, some friends and I got to together and started a website, AskLaney.com, but unfortunately not all of the partners were as serious about it as they had originally said, thus they put forth little time and effort, so now the website will be closing next Monday when our two months of hosting expires. But with that said, my buddy, James, and I are currently in discussion about starting our own "record label". So we'll see how that goes.

i should be singing this in London
i'd much rather be somewhere else
but not just anywhere but here
i know right where it needs to be
that place with the tube and the bridge
and the royalty, so fine
so put me on that aero-plane
and send me flyin' sky high
yeah, send me flyin' sky high!

it's just seven more hours
'til that fresh English air
just seven more hours
and i can't wait to be there

'cause i should be singing this in London
down in that fine old town
let me sing a song for The Queen
and i'll show you how it's done

i was there once before
but it seems so long ago
though it was almost just like yesterday
and i'm left with that yearning
that just keeps on going
and that flame's never going to blow out
not even if i go back again
so just put me on that aero-plane
and send me flyin' sky high
yeah, send me flyin' sky high!
it's just seven more hours
'til that fresh English air

'cause i should be singing this in London
down in that fine old town
let me sing a song for The Queen
and i'll show you how it's done

i made a blog

2008-03-19T00:27:00.001-04:00

i'm not sure why though. oh well...